Thinking of Travis By Leah Ouellette

October 27, 2000 - this was a day that I will never forget. I received the worst news in the world that my dearest boy friend, Travis Roger Weston, died. Only a few months before, he turned twenty-four years old. I was and still am torn to pieces from the shocking and very disturbing news. Travis was so dear to my sister and I. We classified him as "the nicest guy (THE MAN) in the world" and made it known to him. My sister, Amy and I loved and still love all that we ever did with Travis; whether it was watching TV and movies, playing video games, or even roller-blading and bike-riding. Travis sure did live life to the fullest. He was always full of so much life and energy. There were so many times that we talked to Travis. Every single conversation we had with him had and still has so much meaning in our lives. He was by far the best guy that Amy and I could ask for. She and I met Travis on a lovely Saturday afternoon of January 1, 2000. I have the entire day recorded on 6 sheets of paper, as well as in my memory. Nothing will be forgotten. I do not know how such a thing as Trav's death could ever come about...but it did. The regrets I have are that I wish I'd have known him longer. He is just such a wonderful person. I wish that my family and I could have spent many more times with Travis. We know that there is a time for everyone in this world when their time is through, and for Travis that day was Friday, October 27th. We cannot change the past. We can only live on and try to make the most of what we have left. I can't help but pray that Travis is in Heaven; which I am sure he is. Having only known a person for a short while (it made 10 months 10/1/00), others may not understand the concept of really finding a wonderful person who you could not imagine your life without; such as how I feel towards Travis. All the times that we ever had together are irreplaceable. I would not trade them in for anything. I feel like Nicolas Cage on City of Angels where he states that he would rather have one smell, one touch, one sight of that person than to spend eternity without it. To me, I just feel that this is all a very bad, long nightmare and I still have and crave the longing to wake up from it. I am just mad that Travis had to live a great life and die a shocking, tragic death. This I understand and know, will never be explained to me. For this - life - is not something that one needs an explanation to. One justs needs to know and understand the facts of life and how to live and cope with them. I am still waiting for the day when Trav comes home and says that he is fed up with the Navy. I wish he would have have come home long ago, so his family and mine would worry no more. ~A Poem For Travis~ I remember all the things that we have ever done together. They are all locked and kept in my memory, forever. I love all of our moments. I'll love them always. I will still remember on sunny, cloudy, or snowy days. Oh, how I wish he were here. I long for his smile to be worn on his face. I long for those times when I felt his embrace. I wish he were here, so I could see his eyes. His touch, so gentle, his smile, so warm, without him here, I am so torn. Him here on Earth was like Glory Divine. I do now know what else to say. Speechless am I in my solitary way. I know that Trav is living on 'til this day. I'll not see him here, but in Heaven someday. God Bless and keep the man who drew my heart. Not only mine, but my sister's as far. Travis was a great guy - a favorite to me. It was and is not hard to love him endlessly. No he wasn't perfect. No, he wasn't a saint. But each time I was with or near him, I never complained. Travis has taught me a great deal of things through life and death. When he was here, he was always living life to the fullest. He was always doing something and he hardly ever complained. He showed me that there's more to life than what meets the eye. Life won't always come to you; you have to seek it out. Through his death, it was very hard for me to deal with it. The only way I could deal with it was by having such a loving, supportive family and Heavenly Father. God has helped me through a lot of trials and tribulations all throughout the course of my life. Without Him, I would be lost. Coming to knowTravis Roger Weston was one of the best things that I have ever done. I was happy when he was here. I am sad that he is gone. I know he will live on. I just can't wait 'til that day comes when I see him again. -Amy Ouellette